Anxious............

The feeling of smoking has come back full force today.  ALL DAY today I have been feeling an overwhelming need to smoke.  I am extremely anxious and emotional today also so my mood is definitely not helping the issue. Tomorrow is my last day at my job and then on Monday I begin my new one.  Training for 3 months and then let loose upon the world.  I'm leaving behind my work family and it's really eating away at me.  I guess it wouldn't be so bad if everyone hated me and I hated them, but I love my peeps.  They are my family and I will miss them so much.  Tomorrow we will be having a little pot luck together to see those of us who will be leaving to the other center off and I feel so happy to know that I've impacted the lives of others to the point they will never forget me even when I'm gone.  There will always be something around that will remind them of me and I'm proud of that.  hahahahaha  I will have a ton of tissue boxes laying around because I can bet you I will be sobbing like a little girl by the end of the day.