TGIF................

Full week of training down and 6 more weeks to go!  We are heading in a great direction so far and I'm trying to soak in as much as I can.....when I can.  Tomorrow is my doc appt for my meds and shots, so the full blown regimen will be underway beginning immediately afterward. Work out, eat more good stuff, no carbs, and lose all of this excess weight that I'm finding very difficult to feel comfortable in.  When it starts to hurt your midsection just to bend over and pick something up....you've definitely got issues.  The work out plan is going to consist of me jogging around the area because I can't afford the gym right now.  I'm hoping that I can get up a little early in the morning and do my sit ups and weight training and just do my cardio during lunch, but we will see how well this works out with a 2 year old in my way in the morning.  I have been eating a lot of fruits and veggies, but also a lot of fish and chicken.  The need for protein during this regimen is #1.  I need to build my muscle mass back up to normal which I believe is going to be the hardest part.

Aside from everything else another hard thing to deal with is the lack of companionship.  It doesn't have to be with someone of the opposite sex or even sexual.  I'm talking more along the lines of friendship.  I love my friends.  Sounds funny, but I'm serious.  I really do and I would do anything for them.  Some understand this and appreciate it, while others think I'm stupid for thinking and feeling this way.  I am who I am and I am loyal.  I worry, I anticipate, I think about, I care about, I plan around, I am there......   Sometimes I think that I have too many friends (in my mind) that don't feel the same way about me.  I love them either way, but it makes me feel like I need to just let them be.  They don't feel the same way about me.

Tomorrow evening Di and I will be attending a class mate of hers first gig at an art show in the area.  She's super excited and personally I can't wait.  It will be nice to see some new art from locals.