New Years Eve was just another day for us here at home. I'm still fighting my sickness and the meds made me feel like poo so the kids and I bundled up on the couch and watched some documentaries before passing out for the night. I awoke to text after text coming in on my phone from friends wishing me a happy new year while having a drink for me to bring it in just right. I'm hoping that now that I'm not smoking and my goals are set to get things done and changed in my life for my kids and their lives, that being sick so much will dissipate. Doc did ask me if I had lived anywhere else where my allergies weren't so bad and I explained to him that this is the only place they've ever been a problem. Maybe moving to the west coast might help me to live a more happier life? Still thinking about that one.......that's a major major decision and knowing me, I will have to have all of my ducks in a row and everything planned out perfectly in order to proceed with it.
Other things on the agenda consist of school which is going to be my biggest challenge. I am needing to find more time to do this and still have time for the kids. A side of me says, "just do it and quit thinking about the what ifs" the other side is saying, "you get one chance and you want to make sure that you can take this on without any interruption". I want to be spontaneous, but it's always nice to have a plan B. We will see what direction this all takes me this year.
Side note.....I totally had the urge today for a cigarette. Why I don't know, but I thought about the possibility of getting hooked again and the urge went away. So good for me for figuring that out. hahahaha
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