Day 11

Did well again today.  The urge was there mid afternoon but I refrained.  My brain told me, do it do it you can just smoke one it won't hurt you.....then it told me, don't do it you'll feel like crap afterwards, keep chugging along your doing great. 

Had another very odd dream last night.  Woke up only a couple times, but for a very short time.  The dream was mostly about Di.  We lived in a fully furnished home and she decided to come home around 2am which is a big no no.  She brought all of her friends with her and even a few people that were my age walked through the door.  I immediately started yelling and I tried soooo hard in my dream to say a particular curse word and it wouldn't come out of my mouth right.  I ran around with a bat telling everyone in the house to leave while I scolded Di and sent her to her room alone.  I ended up in the living room where there were two white furry throw rugs on the carpet.  I sat down next to one and heard this crackling noise, but couldn't figure out what it was right away.  I looked down at the white furry rug and saw that something was burning the rug away.  It wasn't fire....it was acid.  Burning through the rug I grabbed it and ran it towards the back door to throw it outside.  I opened the back door and the back yard was Narnia!!  I threw the rug out the back door and walked down the steps into craziness.  Weird things flying and walking around, I looked back at the house and woke up.  So I looked up what seeing acid in my dream meant and it means (To see acid in your dream, represents feelings of hatred, rage, and/or revenge. Your integrity may be compromised or called into question.  Alternatively, seeing acid in your dream, indicates that you are being manipulated by a situation or by someone. The dream may also be a metaphor to symbolize a negative influence in your life. Something or someone is eating away at you. )  hhhuuummm