Day 8

Day 8 has really just begun and I have already felt the disappointment set in from cheating last night.  Even though it was one and even though alcohol was involved, I still can't seem to talk myself into making it right.  Today I moved the patch to the right side of my body.  I'm afraid to put it on my tattooed arm in fear that it may cause the ink to do something weird, so I put it just below my collar bone near my arm.  I keep catching myself eating things.  I don't buy junk food so this is a plus, but with all the veggie eating I'm going to end up spending just as much money in buying more as I would buying smokes.  I need another alternative.  My drive for exercising has been placed in the backseat due to being sick all week and my brain keeps telling me to do it, but my body is telling me, HELL NO. Well....it's only day 8.  All I can do is know what needs to be done and somehow do it.  When is another question, but it will happen.

Lucas is doing better.  Still waking up 2 to 3 times in the middle of the night whining and his nose is an ever-flowing fountain of snot, but his fever has gone down without help from additional meds and he's laughing and running around now.

Di is still not sick.....thank you baby Jesus.  lol  Hopefully I can get motivated enough today to start moving some of my stuff into storage and grab all of the Christmas stuff to bring home for set up on Thanksgiving Day.  Not being on FB has allowed me some mental time to figure out what I can do in order to stay where I'm living comfortably.  Lucas and I share a room right now, so by the first of the year I'm moving Di to the master room, Lucas to her room and purchasing a sofa sleeper for the living room where I will sleep at night.  Minimizing and consolidating my household items is going to be the hard part.  I'll be selling my entertainment center soon so I can purchase a smaller TV.  I'll be giving TJ back his humongous rear projection TV that takes up half of my living room.  From there I'll be finding little odds and ends to make up a new entertainment center that won't take up so much space.  We are going to hunker down and stay in this place as long as possible.