Recap....Day 7

Today was a very tough day back to work.  The urge to smoke was very strong, but I held my own.  Didn't smoke until I had two peach vodka with sprite drinks and then I was on fire running around like a mad man screaming for a smoke!!!  Then I had one....  It was nice.  But then I hacked.....and then I thought about running and how I would feel afterwards.  BLAH.....  mind over matter is a must.  All of this stress is giving me some really wacked out dreams too.  Last night I had a dream that I was stationed in Japan with one of my really close girlfriends and she died during a deployment, but after I investigated I found that her greedy husband had banished her to a spirit world so he could collect her insurance.  I ended up bringing her back before I woke up, but I'll never know if we took revenge on her husband.  hahahaha  I swear I'm not psyco....I really do think it's the patch.  hahahahaha  Nicotine is making my mind race.