Day 13

Horrible Horrible Horrible!!!!  Made a really horrible mistake this morning and forgot to put my patch on.  I wasn't the only one at work that realized that today was just not a good day for me, but my coworkers did as well.  I was sweating, I was eating, I was cranky, I was emotional really......too boot, I gave in and took a drag off of a smoke.  Why?  Oddly enough it calmed me.  Was it necessary?  Probably not.  I could have banged my head on my desk and chanted We Are The World; this would have calmed me.  PPPFFFSSSSTTT.....  No worries though, I'm taking some patches to work for those just in case moments.  I did say that common sense was on my side didn't I?

So tomorrow is the day of thanks in which we give thanks to each other by eating a lot of food and passing out.  I will be working tomorrow, so I will give thanks to those who don't call me to do anything they can wait to do on Monday.  I'll be cooking the little things tonight so all we have to cook tomorrow is the hen!  Long night.

I also had another very vivid dream last night about my oldest son Shane.  We were in a hotel hiding in the rafters of an empty room and these men walked into the room looked around and then one of them shot the other one!  When they left we got down off the rafters and we walked around like nothing happened.  Literally, we didn't even feel or act like we just saw a man get shot.  So as we are strolling around we decide to hop on a train, so we did.  I looked out of the door and the valley was so beautiful and you could smell the fresh air.  Then....Shane jumped out.  I was like WTF?  And didn't want to die in case he lived, that would suck.  So I stayed on the train until it slowed and then I ran back for him.  It was a dream version of about 5 miles..you know what I mean.  When I got there I looked around and found nothing.  I started walking back and out of nowhere a NINJA comes out and wants to fight me.  Then I wake up.