Looking up........

Having a crush on anyone is difficult.  The unknown what if's kick in and tear apart your insides as if you were still walking that long hallway to home room and trying not to look at him.  For the past couple years, I haven't had the balls to tell him how beautiful of a man I think he is, so I decided that before I lose site of him completely, I need to tell him.  However; he stopped and spoke to me today.  I was in the gym and he non-shallontly walked past me while I was pumping iron and then slowly walked by me again and said, "ssoooo....doing some weights?"  In my head I was like, "Duh?!?", but replied "Yes....Yes I am!"  He then started to talk to me longer which amazed me that he was taking the time out to actually strike up a conversation with me so I stopped pumping and turned to him.  As he was talking about work stuff I found myself looking over his face deeper trying very hard not to look him in the eyes cause his are amazing and I wouldn't be able to respond to him because my jaw would be on the floor.  He was asking me questions and all I could do was smile and faintly respond.  Then while looking at his nose my eyes caught something on the side....was it?  Is it?  Are you bloody kidding me?  Are you serious?  Hell NOOOOOOO.........he's married.  WHY?????  WHYYYYYYY????????  Well, as silly as it sounds, I'm still glad he noticed me and spoke to me.

 I have a date soon with my wine guy.  We exchanged numbers and he promised that he would take me out and have fun cause I need it.  I gave him a funny look too, but he's a sincere guy and I wouldn't put it past him if he really went all out to make sure I had fun.  I'll keep you posted on that one.....  Until then, enjoy a glass of something strong and don't forget to smile.