As we take on personal goals we learn self sacrifice again and again. Our willpower is not as strong as our minds believe it is and it causes us to give in. I have begun smoking again and even though my conscious tells me to put it down, my willpower to do so is lazy and denies me. I reflect back on how good it felt to not smoke, but it's overpowered by how hard it was to fight off the urges. I guess this is a more tamer version of a junkie detoxing and it has definitely allowed me to come to terms with how difficult it is for them to recover from their habit. We do need a support group, a confidant that we can lean on when the urge is so strong that you want to take the easy way out of it and just swing into the local gas station and swipe your credit card. Online support groups are not so easy to deal with because well.....you can't see them. Are they truely interested in helping or are they just sitting there typing in responses that are from a piece of paper? Like AA, smokers should have a physical group that we can attend to keep us in check with our addiction. If they have one....let me know!
A lighter note - my weight situation is seemingly well. I'm losing inches, gaining muscle mass, but have only lost 2lbs as of Thursday. I was asked to try an Atkins approach to my eating habits as I eat a lot of raw veggies and fruits, but not enough protein. So...doc says to try only eating proteins for a couple of weeks and get these test strips at the store that tell you if your body is in a kind of shock which means it has expelled all bad carbs so when I eat the good carbs (fruits, veggies) that my body will be able to use them properly. So, i started that Thursday night by only eating chicken. The following morning I ate a couple of hard boiled eggs and cheese, lunch was a chicken breast and some cubed cheese bites, dinner was more chicken. hahahaha Pretty soon I will hate chicken! This morning I made some scrambled eggs with turkey and swiss which was amazingly delicious and for lunch I'll be eating salmon, tonight is Talapia. I am going to end up running out of protein foods before I get paid this week so I'll have to figure something out until then, but hey....this is all worth a try. I'm not getting any younger and my body is changing, so I must change my habits to fit me now. Yes...not smoking is one of those things i need to change and it WILL happen.... by the end of this month I should have my Maid of Honor dress delievered, so we will see where I stand at that point when I try it on. Tone Tone Tone......it's a must.
A lighter note - my weight situation is seemingly well. I'm losing inches, gaining muscle mass, but have only lost 2lbs as of Thursday. I was asked to try an Atkins approach to my eating habits as I eat a lot of raw veggies and fruits, but not enough protein. So...doc says to try only eating proteins for a couple of weeks and get these test strips at the store that tell you if your body is in a kind of shock which means it has expelled all bad carbs so when I eat the good carbs (fruits, veggies) that my body will be able to use them properly. So, i started that Thursday night by only eating chicken. The following morning I ate a couple of hard boiled eggs and cheese, lunch was a chicken breast and some cubed cheese bites, dinner was more chicken. hahahaha Pretty soon I will hate chicken! This morning I made some scrambled eggs with turkey and swiss which was amazingly delicious and for lunch I'll be eating salmon, tonight is Talapia. I am going to end up running out of protein foods before I get paid this week so I'll have to figure something out until then, but hey....this is all worth a try. I'm not getting any younger and my body is changing, so I must change my habits to fit me now. Yes...not smoking is one of those things i need to change and it WILL happen.... by the end of this month I should have my Maid of Honor dress delievered, so we will see where I stand at that point when I try it on. Tone Tone Tone......it's a must.
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