SKY IS THE LIMIT????

So I'm holding off on my wine guy date.  Don't ask me why cause I'm not sure myself.  I think it may have a little something to do with him being 41 and a business owner that's very intimidating.  He's very attractive and it seems a little odd that he asked ME on a date.  Yes, I'm still working on my lack of confidence; however it just is an unknown situation for me and has me wondering what his intentions are.  Guys typically have only one thing on their minds, which makes me very standoffish....because my intentions are not that.  I love conversation and if you can hold one with me about something completely out of the ordinary you will have my full attention.  Otherwise....you are screwed and won't be getting a second chance.  Sex is sex. 

I've found myself trying to figure out why I haven't really enjoyed my single life.  I mean I thoroughly enjoy not having to worry about the who, what, when, where and why's of a man in my life..,and actually enjoying not having to ask to go out, what to wear, who to hang out with.....I haven't taken advantage of this. So I must.  I need to fill my life with as much happiness as I can to over power the constant knocking of negativity at my door.