Okay, so due to the fact that this blog is to follow myself flipping things from bad to good.....THIS is going to be a good one to follow from here on out.
We all have those ex-husbands, ex-fiancees, ex-boyfriends or even ex-wives, ex-girlfriends that we still allow a chat or two or three with especially if there are children involved. Well finally after getting sick and tired of being sick and tired of my ex, I told him that he needed to let go of me and find himself a woman who will take care of him like he wants cause I'm not doing it. So....he did just that and found himself a woman who has 4 children! (pic is not her and her kids, just an example of what he is getting himself into)
He met her at a flea market and mentioned to her that he needed a place to live so she offered a room to him. First of all.......any good mother wouldn't be saying...."hey, I know you need a place to live and even though I don't know you and have no clue if you are going to hurt me and my children...you can stay with us." Second of all......only a dumbass that cares nothing about the people around him would be asking a woman with 4 children if he could live with them. So within 2 weeks of meeting her he was moved into his own room in her home and having sex with her. How do I know this you may ask? Because he felt it was necessary to tell me he was. I don't know why he felt it was necessary. The only thing I could think was that he wanted to inform me that he was going to be leaving me alone from here on out. Great!!!! So as the days go on, he shows up to my house with clothes on hangers for Lucas and money for Di for her birthday. He hands me a plastic grocery bag with a sweater and jeans in it for Lucas so I placed it on his bed to deal with later. Now....it's later and I open the bag to take out the clothes and I'm hit in the face with the rancid smell of cigarette smoke. I also notice that there is a receipt in the bag, so I look at it. Feminine products, cat liter, etc. So what do you think at this moment you are looking at this receipt, knowing this guys situation? YES.....and I went the frog off on him. "How dare you bring this woman's kids clothes into MY home for my son! I'm all for charity when I need it, but if you are screwing the help, it's totally not necessary! You have disrespected me for the last time!" He replied back stating that she's just trying to help cause she knows how hard it is for a single parent. I WOULDN'T BE A GDAMN SINGLE PARENT IF IT WASN'T FOR YOUR DUMB IGNORANT ASS! So.....needless to say.....I got my shots in enough to make him feel like a really truly selfish prick mostly by asking him if his mother would be proud of his decision to move in with a woman that has 4 kids when he can't even take care of himself much less his own child.......since he's such a mamma's boy....that really struck a match under his ass.
So where's the flipside of this you may be asking? Well I'll tell ya. My ex-fiance has tore me down more than even my ex-husband. My confidence level is so completely below it's norm I don't know what to do with myself when a "Potential" approaches me. So I am going to learn how to love myself again. To be happy with the outcome of my past here in the future and from that I will gain enough confidence to venture out. It's going to take me a long time to figure all of this out again and I don't want to say that I'm doing it finally because my ex has finally moved on, but I guess I am. I kept holding myself back because I didn't want to look like the bad guy....the one that disregarded the feelings of the other cause that's not who I am, but that IS how he is. So in a sense it was better for me that he did what he did so I could finally move onto the next journey.
I'm going to take everyone with me on this journey.....please comment to help guide me. It's going to be ruff and emotional.....it's going to be fun and adventurous. I don't know what kind of person I am anymore when it comes to dating or flirting...or even conversation about any of what pertains to any of this. I'm going to need all the help I can get.
He met her at a flea market and mentioned to her that he needed a place to live so she offered a room to him. First of all.......any good mother wouldn't be saying...."hey, I know you need a place to live and even though I don't know you and have no clue if you are going to hurt me and my children...you can stay with us." Second of all......only a dumbass that cares nothing about the people around him would be asking a woman with 4 children if he could live with them. So within 2 weeks of meeting her he was moved into his own room in her home and having sex with her. How do I know this you may ask? Because he felt it was necessary to tell me he was. I don't know why he felt it was necessary. The only thing I could think was that he wanted to inform me that he was going to be leaving me alone from here on out. Great!!!! So as the days go on, he shows up to my house with clothes on hangers for Lucas and money for Di for her birthday. He hands me a plastic grocery bag with a sweater and jeans in it for Lucas so I placed it on his bed to deal with later. Now....it's later and I open the bag to take out the clothes and I'm hit in the face with the rancid smell of cigarette smoke. I also notice that there is a receipt in the bag, so I look at it. Feminine products, cat liter, etc. So what do you think at this moment you are looking at this receipt, knowing this guys situation? YES.....and I went the frog off on him. "How dare you bring this woman's kids clothes into MY home for my son! I'm all for charity when I need it, but if you are screwing the help, it's totally not necessary! You have disrespected me for the last time!" He replied back stating that she's just trying to help cause she knows how hard it is for a single parent. I WOULDN'T BE A GDAMN SINGLE PARENT IF IT WASN'T FOR YOUR DUMB IGNORANT ASS! So.....needless to say.....I got my shots in enough to make him feel like a really truly selfish prick mostly by asking him if his mother would be proud of his decision to move in with a woman that has 4 kids when he can't even take care of himself much less his own child.......since he's such a mamma's boy....that really struck a match under his ass.
So where's the flipside of this you may be asking? Well I'll tell ya. My ex-fiance has tore me down more than even my ex-husband. My confidence level is so completely below it's norm I don't know what to do with myself when a "Potential" approaches me. So I am going to learn how to love myself again. To be happy with the outcome of my past here in the future and from that I will gain enough confidence to venture out. It's going to take me a long time to figure all of this out again and I don't want to say that I'm doing it finally because my ex has finally moved on, but I guess I am. I kept holding myself back because I didn't want to look like the bad guy....the one that disregarded the feelings of the other cause that's not who I am, but that IS how he is. So in a sense it was better for me that he did what he did so I could finally move onto the next journey. I'm going to take everyone with me on this journey.....please comment to help guide me. It's going to be ruff and emotional.....it's going to be fun and adventurous. I don't know what kind of person I am anymore when it comes to dating or flirting...or even conversation about any of what pertains to any of this. I'm going to need all the help I can get.
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